For we walk by Faith, not by sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7
Simple AP Sunday Rambles
Sooooo, raise your hand if you ever struggled in your walk with Faith. If you have not, it’s bound to happen on this journey called life. But guess what…it’s okay, you will make it through. Small steps or big steps, the key is, remembering that GOD is with you every step of the way.
My Faith Walk has been real shaky over the years. Like look here sis, one more false step, and you are going to be singing Mary J Blidge’s classic “I’m going doooown?” Well friends, I sang the heck out of Mary J all the way down, on more than one occasion. lol Hitting all notes and giving an all-star performance. And although I fell, the beautiful rise out of each fall makes me smile. How can I smile? Because some of the storms I walked through, Satan used to try and break me. I AM STILL STANDING. At times our vision may get blurry, we get misty eyed through the storm, but the FAITH and STRENGTH to push forward is all on you. With the right spiritual co pilot you can cruise through these situations and make them minor speed bumps.
Lissen Peeps...I had speed mountains I tell ya! Well my hyperactive emotions at times, turned molehills into mountains. This past year was rough to say the least for the kid. Some knew, some did not. I traveled almost all rough days solo dolo. Well THE BIG GUY was with me, but my stubborn behind got tunnel vision. Less if me and more of HIM from here on out. But I got to the point where I was so exhausted from everyone around me issues, that I just kind of pushed my own to the side and struggled in finding little pieces of peace through the storms. Big mistake. Some may ask why I didn’t call on them, ehh…I need a certain ear and sometimes opening the door to the wrong one makes things worse. Not that they are bad to talk to, but they just do not offer the type of support you need. I am not a let’s cry together chick. I am not a point the finger at the other person chick, and quite frankly, I don’t like to talk about things too long either, as I will get lost in wallowing. My coping methods need a tweak, yet I do know what doesn’t work for me…been there, tried that. But from here on out…my first call is to the Most HIGH. I also adapted some meditation techniques. 😊
What else happened this past year, I questioned my Faith for the umpteenth time. Some friendships faded and became memories, while others became stronger. As the walls were crumbling around me, I lost an amazing guy, partly due to my own demise. Yup, woman enough to admit that. I let others negative outlook on dating and relationships seep into my positive patty. Never TF again. (sorry, HE aint done with me yet, sometimes we need this colorful language! lol Don’t judge me) So umm yea, keep all that negative energy to yourselves…puh lease. Or find a healthy outlet that doesn’t burn others out. Because seriously, sonme do not understand how the transfer of energy is real when ones covering is already cracked.
Major takeaway from last year… if you are not including me in your highs, do not come emotionally dump your lows on me. I do not want to hear about all the bad things going on in your life, and then see you out celebrating with everyone else when you come out of the storm. Nah fam…give me back my emotional time wasted back. Sorry I am not sorry.
How am I know...I am in a good place. I have been making peace with things that have lingered too long on my spirit. They don’t call me the bounce back kid for nothing. I am recharged! I am working on growing my business more, and truly offering my customers ME. My talents were suppressed due to what was going on around me. I was allowing certain things that didn’t sit well with my spirit and emotional creativity. That will be a blog for another day. But I am in the right space to create freely and peacefully. Be on the lookout.
So hey peeps, your walk with FAITH is yours, but have one. Don’t give up and don’t let the noise of the outside world tear-down your inner peace. Remove yourself from places and people that are not good for you. Enjoy those who embrace and love you for you and appreciate them always. You may actually be walking through the storm right now, and I pray you find your peace. Trust me, it’s there and trouble doesn’t last always. Turn on some gospel, or gangsta rap if that soothes you, because sometimes I need a little Tupac in my life! But cry it out, work out, read, write, paint, do whatever you need to do FOR YOU! And although you may not see the end of the tunnel, remember that we walk by FAITH and not by sight. Don’t get lost in tunnel vision and don’t lose hope. YOU GOT THIS!
If you are struggling with your FAITH WALK, know you are not alone. HE is always by your side. Quit ignoring him. ;) Others may give up on you, but the one above will never. If you need some motivational reads I’ll list a few of my favs at the end of this and feel free to drop a message leaving me yours. If you are seeking a church home to help restore your FAITH, start randomly visiting the ones in your surrounding cities. That is what I plan on doing, so Central Arkansas Friends, drop your church homes below as well. 😊
I hope you enjoyed the read, the message, and took away something positive. I don’t use a lot of fluff words, as I am a true down to earth southern country girl…be glad I took the majority of the twang out of it. 😉 lol
A few of my consistent motivational Reads
Victory Over The Darkness – Neil T Anderson
The Confident Woman – Joyce Meyer
The Purpose Driven Life – Rick Warren
Big Girls Don’t Whine – Jan Silvious
Superwoman Redefined (Why being Independent is Overrated) By the lovely Ashley Hence, Licensed Professional Counselor. She is a new and upcoming Author that I know personally and respect tremendously.
A link to purchase her book is below.
Also check out this amazing read for children and adults from another amazing author I’m blessed to know and have attended college with, Jamille Rogers Thomas
Be Kind. Be Brave. BE A HERO.
And of course to purchase the newly released Faith Walk Shirt...Follow the link below